I’ve been keeping something from you…
I like to talk. I am like an open book, really. I don’t have many secrets. When I have something going on in my life I like to share it with people. This is just who I am – it doesn’t feel authentic to me to keep things to myself. I have a hard enough time waiting for Christmas to come for people to open presents (and have been known to give my gifts early so that I don’t have to wait :p)
SO, when there is something serious going on in my life, my natural reaction is to talk about it, to share it with people, to mull over ideas and options.
And, let me tell you, I have had something SUPER big going on in my life this fall.
But, I didn’t feel that I could share it with all of you until I knew more about what it was. I didn’t want people to worry, and I didn’t want to seem like I was making a big deal out of something which may or may not turn out to be a big deal (either way it sure was/is a big deal to me though!)
So, I shut down, without feeling like I could share what was going on with most people, I didn’t feel like I was truly myself. I stopped writing my blog and newsletter, and I spent most days at home on my couch. I didn’t feel like myself when I was holding back a big piece of what was going on in my life.
What’s Going On? You ask…
Well, in September I had a physical during which I had a bit of tenderness in my lower abdomen. No big deal, right? The doctor sent me for an ultrasound though, just to be on the safe side. I had this done a few weeks later then went back in for the results. Lots of things were on my mind that day (probably my ‘to-do list’ or what I was making for dinner that night) and I totally wasn’t concerned with what my doctor had to say. To be honest, I felt a little inconvenienced by the whole office visit since it felt totally unnecessary. So, I really wasn’t paying attention when she started giving me the ultrasound results until she said…
The Big C-word
“They found something in your uterus and it looks like cancer”
Wait, what? I just had a little tenderness. What are you talking about?
Then she repeated it “We found something in your uterus and it looks like it could be cancer”
Holy shit! Did she just say what I thought she just said? She then tried to tell me that it could be other things (maybe a fibroid or a polyp) but it really wasn’t looking like that based on the ultrasound.
“But don’t worry; you’re young and healthy” she said.
I’m sure that was meant to be reassuring but it totally wasn’t! I wanted to know: ‘What do I do? How will you know?’ I was told that I’d go for an MRI so they could get more info about what it was and I’d come back 2 weeks after the MRI for results.
So, I left the office, numb and in shock. How can you be told that you probably have cancer expect to go on with your daily life?
I went home and started assembling a support team. I first told my husband what the doctor had said and then told a handful of my closest friends. I needed to be able to talk about it with at least a few people!
I thought about what my plan of action would be and talked to a colleague who is a Registered Holistic Nutritionist and Certified Cancer Practitioner – I knew that while I was waiting to hear more about my condition I could at least start using food as my medicine. No surprise that she recommended a whole food, plant based diet with no alcohol, no caffeine, no sugar, no gluten, and no animal products. I immediately started following this. She also told me to double my daily Juice Plus dose and to make sure that I was having a Complete smoothie every day. She said that the Juice Plus would help my immune system to fight the cancer and detoxify anything that I was coming into contact with and that the Complete smoothie mix would help stabilize my blood sugar (cancer cells feed on sugar) and regulate my hormones (important for me since uterine cancer is stimulated by excess estrogen).
I also contacted another colleague who has a long history of working as a radiology technician and is very familiar with ultrasounds and their results. She read my ultrasound report and confirmed that no, it didn’t look like a fibroid or polyp, so yes, I may be looking at cancer. She reminded me that it could still be something else, so to keep positive.
And Keep Positive I Did
I read about cancers of the uterus and what the different stages and grades meant, what the different treatment options were, what the side effects might be, and all of the different possibilities that I could come across. This knowledge is what helped keep me positive. For me, learning all of this removed the fear of the unknown. I also did a ton of research into alternative and complimentary cancer strategies and thought about which ones I would want to try. In addition to the extra Juice Plus, I bought a juicer and started juicing every few days to get even more plant nutrients (my medicine) in. I also read positive stories about others overcoming cancer and focused on thinking about how I wanted to spend my time.
This experience reaffirmed for me what is most important in my life:
1) Spending quality time, making happy memories, and sharing experiences with my family
2) Sharing healthy living with others so that they may lead long, healthy, happy lives as well
Fast Forward to December
It seemed like agony some days waiting for the MRI and then waiting for the results, but just before Christmas I got an amazing gift. It looks like I don’t have cancer after all! I still need a few biopsies to confirm but it is looking good 🙂
Instead it appears that I have a condition called adenomyosis. This basically means that the layer that creates the inner lining of the uterus is growing into and invading the muscle layer of my uterus. This causes a lot of pain (which I’ve had all fall now), heavy bleeding, and each month it progresses and causes increasing damage to the uterus.
The treatment is to try to supress my menstrual cycle with hormones but I was told that I will need a hysterectomy, likely 2-5 years down the road.
If you’ve been following me for a LONG time, then you may know that we were trying to grow our family in 2012 when I had 3 pregnancy losses. Those were rough, and then my dad passed away, and my husband and I decided that we had been through enough loss for the time being and we put our baby making on hold.
However, with this new diagnosis, we’ve been told that we probably can have children now, but may not be able to for long (since the adenomyosis is damaging my uterus and it gets worse each month). My doctor’s advice…
Now or Never
So we’ve chosen the ‘now’ option and are hoping for a speedy conception and healthy pregnancy! I know that the adenomyosis could cause complications but I’ve also heard positive stories of people who’ve had healthy, full term babies with it.
Please keep your fingers crossed and send positive thoughts for us. This has been one heck of a journey the last few months and it doesn’t show any signs of stopping! I’ll keep you posted on how we’re all making out.
Health & Happiness!
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